So, I am really frustrated with Evan...but I think that he is just the target of everything because, well I guess there is a bunch of stuff that is somewhat related to him and are, in general, idiotic things that are irriating me. At the moment if Evan came home I would probably scream at him about all these things and then feel horrible because basically they are not his fault. Also, Evan has been working A TON...
There is:
The toilet that gets clogged every other day...
The garbage has not been taken to the curb (Evan's job) for two weeks now because I cannot remember to tell him and he doesn't bother to remember.
The ladder out back that I banged my knee on while taking out the dog
The dog hates to put on his harness because of the stupid spikes Evan put on it, but I have to put it on because I can't carry him anymore, so I have to struggle with him everytime I do.
My own body feels like crap all the time, maybe because of the mattress, maybe because of the food I am eating, or not eating, maybe because of not taking my meds as regularly as I should...
I am only writing this all out in the hopes that by the time Evan gets home I won't be so upset.
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Down to two months...
Work has been picking up (three days a week instead of two) which is good. Evan has been scheduled for some overtime which means he will be sleeping on his off days...so not much facetime for us but, you do what you gotta do. He will hopefully be able to take a few days off when Liam is born. Or maybe he will wait and take off the week when our friend Kristin will be in town (the last week of May). Or maybe he can do half and half. Anyway...I look forward to seeing him discover the joys and complexities of being a daddy.
On Saturday we went to McMinnville for our birthing class. It was interesting, it made me feel a little better about some things (like epidurals) that I wasn't really sure about. Also, I got a refresher of how the system works...like when you get moved from room to room, how long a typical hospital stay is after the baby is born and all that. I even got some new ideas on what might work to help me get through labor. It was kind of funny getting to the class though, there was a mix-up with communication between the lady who scheduled the classes and the lady who taught and we ended up being the only people in the class! I guess for $105 a private class is worth it. But I felt kind of bad for the instructor having to come in on a day off...but then she gets paid I guess.
We have fallen behind of my goals of getting the house painted. I have modified the goal and now I just want to at least get Liam's room done by the end of April. Maybe the hallway if we are lucky. And if we get the kitchen/living room done than bully for us! My mom and I made plans for her to come and help me at the end of April before we move down there for waiting for Liam to arrive. She is going to help me organize the house a little better (mainly Liam's room and the files since we just got a filing cabinet finally!) before Liam arrives. I will also probably do my belly cast around then since I don't think I will get much bigger in-between the end of April and May 11th and I don't want to miss the oportunity. I mean I can't see myself going. "Oh crap I think I am having contractions, quick do the belly cast before my water breaks!"
The house is still kind of a mess from the shower, which was loads of fun, but I am taking it slow to get it all cleaned up. It helps Evan is very patient with living in such chaos (at least to me). We are just finishing off all the left-overs. Of course Debbie made too much food, but then she always does and that is okay because Evan loves left-overs in his lunch and I just have to throw stuff into bags or tupperware and it's done.
The sun is finally coming out again (though the forcast says rain this weekend) I am ready to be able to start hanging my washing on the line outside and basking in the summer sun. It will be great when Liam is born. I will be able to take his pack and play out or his swing and just hang out reading, playing with him and Winston or working in the yard. And we will get lots of time in the sun (with proper protection of course) and it will be wonderful. I am also looking forward to camping, boating, going to the beach, all the fun summer activities which will be so new and exciting to Liam. We are planning on going up to my parents' place in Washington for 4th of July which will be super fun with the fireworks! Anyway, my shoulders are starting to hurt from all this typing and I probably should go rescue Winston from the backyard. Evan will be home in about an hour and maybe we will go for a walk around the lake.
On Saturday we went to McMinnville for our birthing class. It was interesting, it made me feel a little better about some things (like epidurals) that I wasn't really sure about. Also, I got a refresher of how the system works...like when you get moved from room to room, how long a typical hospital stay is after the baby is born and all that. I even got some new ideas on what might work to help me get through labor. It was kind of funny getting to the class though, there was a mix-up with communication between the lady who scheduled the classes and the lady who taught and we ended up being the only people in the class! I guess for $105 a private class is worth it. But I felt kind of bad for the instructor having to come in on a day off...but then she gets paid I guess.
We have fallen behind of my goals of getting the house painted. I have modified the goal and now I just want to at least get Liam's room done by the end of April. Maybe the hallway if we are lucky. And if we get the kitchen/living room done than bully for us! My mom and I made plans for her to come and help me at the end of April before we move down there for waiting for Liam to arrive. She is going to help me organize the house a little better (mainly Liam's room and the files since we just got a filing cabinet finally!) before Liam arrives. I will also probably do my belly cast around then since I don't think I will get much bigger in-between the end of April and May 11th and I don't want to miss the oportunity. I mean I can't see myself going. "Oh crap I think I am having contractions, quick do the belly cast before my water breaks!"
The house is still kind of a mess from the shower, which was loads of fun, but I am taking it slow to get it all cleaned up. It helps Evan is very patient with living in such chaos (at least to me). We are just finishing off all the left-overs. Of course Debbie made too much food, but then she always does and that is okay because Evan loves left-overs in his lunch and I just have to throw stuff into bags or tupperware and it's done.
The sun is finally coming out again (though the forcast says rain this weekend) I am ready to be able to start hanging my washing on the line outside and basking in the summer sun. It will be great when Liam is born. I will be able to take his pack and play out or his swing and just hang out reading, playing with him and Winston or working in the yard. And we will get lots of time in the sun (with proper protection of course) and it will be wonderful. I am also looking forward to camping, boating, going to the beach, all the fun summer activities which will be so new and exciting to Liam. We are planning on going up to my parents' place in Washington for 4th of July which will be super fun with the fireworks! Anyway, my shoulders are starting to hurt from all this typing and I probably should go rescue Winston from the backyard. Evan will be home in about an hour and maybe we will go for a walk around the lake.
Friday, February 27, 2009
Snow again!
Garg...I was suppose to work today. It started snowing again last night and this morning we had three inches at our house. Evan couldn't get the car down the hill so he called his brother (who we were suppose to pick up) and asked if he needed to go...apparently he did so Evan walked down our hill to meet him (Justin also has chains for his car.) . I did not go because Evan decided that he didn't want me driving down I-5 to MY job if it was hazardous at all and even if it wasn't he thought it was a "unnecessary risk" for me to be in the car on 47 (our very twisty main road out) down to the highway.
Sort of sweet how he protects me like that...course it shoud be pointed out that if I wasn't pregnant with his son, he might not be quite so protective...but maybe not, maybe he would have said the same thing.
I kind of am mad I don't get to work though. On the other hand I slept pretty badly last night, I am losing my voice, my cough is getting worse and I have a very full weekend. So perhaps it is best that I didn't. I am trying to decide whether I will try and accomplish anything today or not. With the way I feel at the moment I sort of just want to spend the day curling up with my fuzzy robe, a cup of tea, a book and movies. Blah...but I still have mopping in the kitchen and living room, cleaning the bathroom, and cleaning our room to do before my baby shower on Sunday.
In the meantime, something a little less mundane...I keep having very weird, very vivid dreams. Which I think is more disturbing to my sleep than the having to get up and pee every few hours...of course it could be both.
Sort of sweet how he protects me like that...course it shoud be pointed out that if I wasn't pregnant with his son, he might not be quite so protective...but maybe not, maybe he would have said the same thing.
I kind of am mad I don't get to work though. On the other hand I slept pretty badly last night, I am losing my voice, my cough is getting worse and I have a very full weekend. So perhaps it is best that I didn't. I am trying to decide whether I will try and accomplish anything today or not. With the way I feel at the moment I sort of just want to spend the day curling up with my fuzzy robe, a cup of tea, a book and movies. Blah...but I still have mopping in the kitchen and living room, cleaning the bathroom, and cleaning our room to do before my baby shower on Sunday.
In the meantime, something a little less mundane...I keep having very weird, very vivid dreams. Which I think is more disturbing to my sleep than the having to get up and pee every few hours...of course it could be both.
Monday, February 23, 2009
getting closer...
Yesterday we got a crib for free from craigslist! Yea! I am quite excited because it is the first piece of major baby furniture we have gotten so far. I also bought a couple pairs of slip on shoes because it is getting difficult to bend over and tie tennis shoes.
I feel like I am almost ready for Liam to be born. Even though he has two and 1/2 more months to go before he is fully baked. I am getting very impatient, I have gained about 10 pounds and I am wondering how much more I am going to gain. I get tired really fast and all the muscles and tendons around my belly are stretching and driving me nuts. People keep telling me how good I look and how tiny I am but I feel big and lumbering. Oh well...
I will have my first shower this coming weekend and then we can totally start outfiting the nursery. That will be so thrilling...I will be able to go in and look at the crib and fold and refold and organize and reorganize his clothes and blankets. Rearrange all the toys...It will be SOOO fun!
But for now, it is a nice day outside and so Evan and I are going to the park to take pitcures and play with the dog before painting the hallway. We will have our bedroom and the hallway done for the shower, but not the nursery or the living room/kitchen or bathroom yet. We will do the nursery in March and HOPEFULLY the living room/kitchen in April. No idea when the bathroom will get done....sort of low priority right now...
I feel like I am almost ready for Liam to be born. Even though he has two and 1/2 more months to go before he is fully baked. I am getting very impatient, I have gained about 10 pounds and I am wondering how much more I am going to gain. I get tired really fast and all the muscles and tendons around my belly are stretching and driving me nuts. People keep telling me how good I look and how tiny I am but I feel big and lumbering. Oh well...
I will have my first shower this coming weekend and then we can totally start outfiting the nursery. That will be so thrilling...I will be able to go in and look at the crib and fold and refold and organize and reorganize his clothes and blankets. Rearrange all the toys...It will be SOOO fun!
But for now, it is a nice day outside and so Evan and I are going to the park to take pitcures and play with the dog before painting the hallway. We will have our bedroom and the hallway done for the shower, but not the nursery or the living room/kitchen or bathroom yet. We will do the nursery in March and HOPEFULLY the living room/kitchen in April. No idea when the bathroom will get done....sort of low priority right now...
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Driving through feathers
This morning I took my niece and nephew to school...it was snowing very lightly when we left and by the time I was heading home it was like driving through downy feathers. I didn't know it was suppose to snow again it was sort of unexpected and I hope it doesn't too much because next week I am scheduled to work a lot. Also, Evan does not have anymore vacation time so he has to work...
Well..here is an update. The snow melted. Of course. Good...
I have been going to Jazzercise. Oh my. I have indeed moved to a small town. I have only been twice and am not very good and cannot do much as it makes my belly hurt after a little while. But I was shown yesterday how to do a lot of the moves sitting down so that should help.
Plus it's not sooo wierd. I mean they use modern rock and pop to dance to. Though the instructors are of course weirdly upbeat. The one yesterday kept going on about Dolly Parton.
I am very excited because I got to order my pregnancy pillow and my support belt yesterday. Wow, even as I was writing that I was struck by how lame that sounds but I am still excited. Because it means (hopefully) better nights for both me and Evan. Also, no more (or at least) limited back and ligiment pain.
I am getting to the point where my belly does not allow me to bend. I find this very inconvienent.
I went to the library a few days ago and got a bunch of new books. YEA! Unfortuately they only had one of the books that were recomended to me by my sister-in-law. It's a small town what can you do?
Tomorrow we are going to a sort of rememberance party for a friend who passed away last year. I am not sure how I feel. Evan says I should just go and not over-analyze it...not think about what to say or do as there is no "right" thing in these kind of situations.
Well..here is an update. The snow melted. Of course. Good...
I have been going to Jazzercise. Oh my. I have indeed moved to a small town. I have only been twice and am not very good and cannot do much as it makes my belly hurt after a little while. But I was shown yesterday how to do a lot of the moves sitting down so that should help.
Plus it's not sooo wierd. I mean they use modern rock and pop to dance to. Though the instructors are of course weirdly upbeat. The one yesterday kept going on about Dolly Parton.
I am very excited because I got to order my pregnancy pillow and my support belt yesterday. Wow, even as I was writing that I was struck by how lame that sounds but I am still excited. Because it means (hopefully) better nights for both me and Evan. Also, no more (or at least) limited back and ligiment pain.
I am getting to the point where my belly does not allow me to bend. I find this very inconvienent.
I went to the library a few days ago and got a bunch of new books. YEA! Unfortuately they only had one of the books that were recomended to me by my sister-in-law. It's a small town what can you do?
Tomorrow we are going to a sort of rememberance party for a friend who passed away last year. I am not sure how I feel. Evan says I should just go and not over-analyze it...not think about what to say or do as there is no "right" thing in these kind of situations.
Saturday, January 10, 2009
Baby gender
I am just writing this to let everyone know what we found out and also to record my thoughts on the ultrasound visit. I don't want to forget this feeling of awe I still have even the morning after!
First off, for those who don't know...we are having a BOY! I admit I experienced a tiny twinge of disappointment when the tech told us (who knew my brother by the way...her name was Jamie?). But I am just fine now. I am just happy that she told us everything looked really good and very well developed. He is small right now but that is okay by me, I surely don't want to deliver a HUGE baby and he has got four more months to grow.
At first it was really hard to distinquish between what was the baby and what was uterus and whatnot, but we spent about a 1/2 hour there and by the end I could really tell where is little hands were and legs all tucked up. The clarity is really quite extrodinary. They have to take all sorts of measurements to determine that the baby is growing correctly and fast enough. Bones, brain, heart, all the internal organs they can get a clear shot of, so they know that his liver or something isn't wonky. So Evan and I got to enjoy a whole 1/2 hour of watching our boy float around and move...it was just fantastic. We even got a whole roll of really good pictures of his profile and his foot, his hand, and of course his (at this point) little manhood. Actually the hand photo (which is Evan's favorite) is more of his fist punching me. But it is still cool and you can see all his little finger bones if you look carefully. I really like a particular profile shot because you can see his spine very clearly.
The tech tried to get a 3-D shot but he does not have enough fat under his skin, he just looked like a shriveled old man. And he kept turning away from the camera so we couldn't get a real clear face shot. But I did see him blink at us once. He also did the most adorable thing(here I go into mommy mode "my child is so cute...blah, blah" and he's not even BORN!)...he kept grabbing his ears, which is something I do as a nervous habit, tugging on my ears. You really got a sense of his little personality. I kept saying he was being stubborn, because he kept moving away and wedging himself way down which made it hard for the tech to get clear head shots.
It was so...just...I can't even think of the right adjective to describe when she zoomed in and watched his heart beat with all the tiny chambers! We even got to hear it twice. I was almost crying I was so thrilled, my face hurt for smiling because I was trying not to laugh. I just look at the pictures and want to hold him and touch him and kiss him RIGHT NOW! But I have to wait four more months...alas...
First off, for those who don't know...we are having a BOY! I admit I experienced a tiny twinge of disappointment when the tech told us (who knew my brother by the way...her name was Jamie?). But I am just fine now. I am just happy that she told us everything looked really good and very well developed. He is small right now but that is okay by me, I surely don't want to deliver a HUGE baby and he has got four more months to grow.
At first it was really hard to distinquish between what was the baby and what was uterus and whatnot, but we spent about a 1/2 hour there and by the end I could really tell where is little hands were and legs all tucked up. The clarity is really quite extrodinary. They have to take all sorts of measurements to determine that the baby is growing correctly and fast enough. Bones, brain, heart, all the internal organs they can get a clear shot of, so they know that his liver or something isn't wonky. So Evan and I got to enjoy a whole 1/2 hour of watching our boy float around and move...it was just fantastic. We even got a whole roll of really good pictures of his profile and his foot, his hand, and of course his (at this point) little manhood. Actually the hand photo (which is Evan's favorite) is more of his fist punching me. But it is still cool and you can see all his little finger bones if you look carefully. I really like a particular profile shot because you can see his spine very clearly.
The tech tried to get a 3-D shot but he does not have enough fat under his skin, he just looked like a shriveled old man. And he kept turning away from the camera so we couldn't get a real clear face shot. But I did see him blink at us once. He also did the most adorable thing(here I go into mommy mode "my child is so cute...blah, blah" and he's not even BORN!)...he kept grabbing his ears, which is something I do as a nervous habit, tugging on my ears. You really got a sense of his little personality. I kept saying he was being stubborn, because he kept moving away and wedging himself way down which made it hard for the tech to get clear head shots.
It was so...just...I can't even think of the right adjective to describe when she zoomed in and watched his heart beat with all the tiny chambers! We even got to hear it twice. I was almost crying I was so thrilled, my face hurt for smiling because I was trying not to laugh. I just look at the pictures and want to hold him and touch him and kiss him RIGHT NOW! But I have to wait four more months...alas...
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
Frustrations and nausea...
So...I am still getting sick (though certainly not as frequently or as violently not) and now there are these little frustrations I am dealing with.
There are the pregnancy frustrations:
1. Still sick (as mentioned)
2. feeling fat, not cute and pregnant...just heavy
3. no energy burst like people keep telling me you get in the second trimester
Other frustrations:
1. Stupid medical people not being able to get their books right so they are sending "collections" after us...
2. Not working but no energy to get the house in order
3. organization issues...
Anyway...got to lay down now.
There are the pregnancy frustrations:
1. Still sick (as mentioned)
2. feeling fat, not cute and pregnant...just heavy
3. no energy burst like people keep telling me you get in the second trimester
Other frustrations:
1. Stupid medical people not being able to get their books right so they are sending "collections" after us...
2. Not working but no energy to get the house in order
3. organization issues...
Anyway...got to lay down now.
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